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Thursday, October 21, 2004

free style

hmmm, fishing out some random thoughts
ego, sex, blog, mind, god, love, no, hell, yes, why? why do all important things are so small.?
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Why do I fall in love with strange voices, gwen stefani and mary dolores? Hard to get audio , seldom played on radio
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How many times doesn’t that happen, you have it right in front of you and you cant see it or don’t see it…and when you find out where it was all the time …even a curse sounds a shame. comb, spectackles, keychains are fine but what if it's life..... what if u have your life in front of u and u don see it.....??? There has to be an explanation for such happenings?
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Rick-shaw. bogartish applecart.light of dawn.8:29am.sloth .ummmmm hmmmmmmm. Open lids, 8:51,rush hurry.brush 20 seconds, shower gruuuuuuuushhhhhh 39 seconds, dress up , where's my matching tie? Shit. Wuff huff , die or lie.wuff huff, skip sandwich. muffin cream on first break okay? Wuff huff run run run, swipe card, yes….made it 8:57 6 minutes new record … hehe congrats, old record kitna? 8 minutes. Next goal: aim for 4 minutes.
Hi….. there…. how u doin?
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Why is this always levelled against disciplines that have greater responsibilities to explain the uncertainties? I am sick and tired of people bashing Sigmund Freud and analysis. His was probably one of the imaginative answers supported with decent proof, and If your whole generation develops a defence mechanism for a graded stimulus over aperiod of time and space, what can he do? And why is that analysis is just not forgiven like an old software say windows 97? Is it because it involves your mom? If it’s a yes, you are lying to yourself and your mom.
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S P O N T A N E O U S... just the word is so sexy
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How would you describe that? That slow rendition of stillness, where patterns fold back onto themselves to produce a fleeting moment of completeness, leaving no doors ajar for doubt.I’ve tried to put my best will to pause, regard and feel the intensity of such moments, but every time, I give up, not with a sense of defeat but with an air of accomplishment. It reminds me of being human, and it happens in such variety.Regard this moment, for instance…. …, when u feel love, when you hear her breathing in your face, see her lips waiting for yours and suddenly it’s all vivid, all those asking, searching, reading, thinking… all your life has come to this … all thoughts fall dead and there’s only one impulse, one choice…...have you ever tried to hold back and ask yourself anything? May be you haven’t .May be you know its futile. May be deep down you know are yourself and you don’t have to ask yourself… anything. Incredible.........
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Even the sun in this part of the world, comes to work early and goes back late, so its bright even most part of the night, from 4 am to 10 pm. Now, that’s a real prick for maniacs like me who grow with darkness. Once I came back dead tired from the work and hit the sack and when I happen to wake up, it was 9’o clock and I didn’t know if it was day or night, damn! if it was day I hadda be in my wards fortunately it was still night.
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    havin this aweful flu for the last two days; in my delirium, tried sleep deprivation with food deprivation for the first time together, 12 hrs was expected, after 20 hrs started hallucinating...guess what???? 100 cigarettes hanging by the air and two hands walking randomly , music in the background...philadelphia title song..... that was lovely, awesome.... must try again but very demanding... research area........
    use recycled oxygen....so long,

    2 comments:

    Sham said...

    Liked the free style..
    have experienced the feeling.. almost understood sometimes.. and even today marvel a few moments where control is overtaken.

    Ubermensch said...

    tx sham for the comments,
    an overwhelming feeling indeed!!

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